my sister got her score today. i can't tell you how much she got because she's super sensitive and she doesn't like it when i tell my friends, so. yeah.

and i've got a really ugly confession to make.

for a moment i didn't know what to think or feel, but basically i failed to be truely happy for her, as i should be.

i remember going through all my "shou ce"s before the chinese paper, but before hers she played maple the whole day. yet she still did better than me.
i could go on and on, but i realise then i'd be appearing very pathetic and well, basically you get my point.

i asked my dad if he was ever disappointed in my score. he said no.

i know i'm not as smart, its just my hard work when i do well. Dad started explaining that i could still catch up, which means, more hard work.
its not very fair, is it.

my sister asked if i was jealous cause' she said i didn't seem like i wanted to talk to her. i denied. i've got too much pride in me to admit it.